It has been three years since I started writing here and this time I have been conscious of the turn of this event. Why? There had been many occasions this year when I thought of sharing a new idea here with my readers and on most such occasions I decided against publishing them. On this important milestone (3 years since CanTHeeRava’s debut) I would be letting myself down if I did not tell you why I chose not to share those views here.
I have penned many more articles than those that appeared on CanTHeeRava and they are still in my books and on sheets of paper. I prefer the verb ‘penned’ to ‘typed’ because writing is more intimate than blogging. In a way, I discriminated against my own blog. Being a classicist at heart I did not see my own blog worthy of publishing something I thought deserved a better place and by better I mean a place that will be real (a book or a news paper).
Did I also feel insecure that I might run out of ideas one day if I just continued to type them loud on my blog?…well…the thought did cross my mind on a few occasions. However, I don’t think I will run out of ideas soon…at least I hope… The quality of those ideas could be debatable and that debate existed in the past as well. However, the fact remains that I chose not to publish those articles on my own blog.
Am I aiming for critical approval by experts, by people I respect who are not online (many who will never use internet because they are past that age)? May be I am…. Another thing must also be made clear here. As mentioned earlier I wrote many things over the last year or so. A tiny percentage deserved a place relatively more permanent than CanTHeeRava. A lot of them were not ready to be read and I just put them in cold storage so that they can undergo slow decay. If there is any life in them they can be revived later. What I publish here at CanTHeeRava has been mostly factual reflective commentary (how obvious!). That will continue in future. The effort will be to add in a fresh dimension wherever possible. As long as that effort comes to me effortlessly, I will publish them here.
I respect my blog hence I cannot write something that just looks new…I discriminate against my own blog because I think discriminating against your own kind (when they are at an advantage) is acceptable and is expected of a level headed fair minded individual.